I love you GRANDPA ! :)

last sunday morning , i get a call from my aunt , she told me that my grandpa

suddenly hard to breath. and they send him to hospital and my grandpa in

emergency room . and i told my mom. my mom working. so she ask

my oldest sister go and visit my grandpa first.. i stay at home..

evening around 5.. i went to hospital with my mom and my sister..

all my aunt was there..

when i loook to my grandpa , he''s so weaaaaaakkkkk , Hard to breath .

his heartbeat not stabil.. I scared.. I worried.. Tears out..

and i tel my mom , i dont wanna go school the next day and i wanna

stay at hospital to take care my grandpa . My mom ask me back home to bath first

just come later , so my brother in law fetch me home to ready my thing first . i done all

thing very quickly.. after bath.. i get a text from my sis and she says : " Grandpa already leave us" I Shocked , Cried , how dat i hope dat she get the wrong information.. but..

I rush in to the car and ask my brother in low fetch me back to hospital very fast .

i reach there , They all crying.. when look to the bed.. He stop breathing.. He's cold.. i cant stop crying and hug him.. my sister beside whisper me : Before grandpa leave , he din say anything.. he just leave his tears when his last breath " I Cry harder . if i know he'll leave us on that day..

i'll not backing home ! i'll stay there.. but its too late..

Grandpa , i miss when you ask me already eaten or not . i miss the way you laugh . the way you talk with me , the way you care me.. I miss you grandpa :'(((

His last picture :')

he'll go to a better place , where there's peace .

and its forever without pain and sick .

- Heaven

Grandpa , i'll be very miss you..

i took this photo 3 months ago :')

That moment , He's still challenge with his sick .

He's still Strong :') He Tried his best..

I LOVE YOU GRANDPA .

I MISS YOU GRANDPA .

:')

08 // 08 \\ 2011 This song is all what i want to talk today . :)

• 休息是为了走更长的路
  你就是我的旅途
  都是因为你 我一直漫步
  想要跟你一起走到最后
  但我遗失了地图
  谁给谁束缚 谁比谁辛苦
  爱到深处才会领悟
  
  
• [好的事情 最后虽然结束
  感动十分 就有十分满足
  谢谢你 是你陪我走过那些路
  痛 是以后无法再给你幸福]
  
  
• [ 好的事情 也许能够重复 ]
  感动时分 就算纷纷模糊
  不要哭 至少你和我记得很清楚
  爱 是为彼此祝福
  Love
  想要跟你一起走到最后
  但我遗失了地图
  谁给谁束缚 谁比谁辛苦
  爱到深处才会领悟
  好的事情 最后虽然结束
  感动十分 就有十分满足
  谢谢你 是你陪我走过那些路
  痛 是以后无法再给你幸福
  好的事情 也许能够重复
  感动时分 就算纷纷模糊
  不要哭 至少你和我记得很清楚
  爱 是为彼此祝福
  不要哭 至少你和我记得很清楚
  爱 是为彼此祝福
  

[ 好的事情 最后虽然结束 , 谢谢你 是你陪我走过那些路. 痛, 是以后无法再给你幸福]

• 
  

STRESSSSSSS !

Why should

FRIENDS become ENEMIES ??

I'm just feel so stress sitting at my class recently..

when i step in to my class , I feel weird .

last week , me and some of my classmate asking teacher for

changing the seat . we give teacher our idea . but teacher

not really like with our idea so teacher just think another

idea . we just follow what she ask us to do .

i believe that teacher do this also for our good .

isnt it ?

People , what a class should do is we need get closer to each other .

WE ARE CLASSMATES . theres no one that you dont know at our class .

Pleaseeeeee , BE WHAT A CLASSMATES SHOULD DO .

Not By judging them , hate them , blam them .

TODAY MY LIFE BEGIN !

i've been working hard so long
seems like pain has been my only friend
my fragile heart's been done so wrong
i wondered if i'd ever heal again

ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
all around me i can feel a change (ohh)

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins

yesterday has come and gone
and i've learn how to leave it where it is
and i see that i was wrong
for ever doubting i could win

ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
all around me i can feel a change (ohh)

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins

life's to short to have regrets
so i'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget
only have one life to live
so you better make the best of it

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins

i will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
leave the past behind me, today my life begins
a whole new world is waiting it's mine for the taking
i know i can make it, today my life begins
today my life begins...

LEAVE MY PAST BEHIND ME .

i know i can make it .

26 MAY

HELLO Bloggie !! :P

awww yeahhh finally end of exam ! hahaha!

today after school with edna , wen yee , fenny go watch movie .

Voice From The Grave .

damn this movie . dun know wan cry or laugh . hahah .

before we enjoy the movie . we go McD take our Lunch ! :D

4 set of DOUBLE CHEESE BURGER ! =D

tomorrow need go to school and celebrating for teacher's day !

hahah! after school goin to Likas Wall Climbing with Friends !

woohoo feel excited for it ! =D

Betweeen , Happy Holiday !! ^^

24 may :)

more few days Holiday Start :)

I though i can spend my holiday time with you .

but i know dats impossible .

Why Time Past so fast ? more few days then june .

feels like last year just happening yesterday .

I miss the times .

I miss the moments .

you lift my feet of the ground , and you spin me around .

you make me crazier .

feels like i'm falling and I'm Lost in your Eyes .

wishing that i realized what i had when you were mine .

all the thing i tel you was true , no lie . thats all what

i wan to tel you.

Sorry because i never appreciate you .

Sorry that i love you.

Sorry that i hurt you .

iwontfallinlovewithyouagain.

Thanks for your fairy tale .

IMY :')


i promise myself not to miss you again .

if's this is the only way for we both , i surrender..

Hello Bloggie !!

din upload my blog so long adyy =S

Hmm , just stress for the exam this week .

Account , Bm most stress!

maybe will less online this week .

=X

and 2 week Holiday coming !

planning go somewhere play .

anyone ? any nice place suggest ?

hahha .

Someone ,

i misssss you :P

Today Holiday . goin suria with Jessica laterr . :)

Without Friends , I'm ALONE .

i dont know why , i feel so happy recently .

Thanks to YOU who make me SMILE :)

Thanks to YOU who care about me always :)

Thanks to YOU who always be there when i need someone :)

Thanks you VERRY MUCHHH :)

Friends ,

Thanks For Be by my side when i'm going to fall .

Thanks For Catching my hand Hard when I'm fall .

Thanks For trying to Understanding me .

If i ever made you feel sad , mad ,

I'm Sorry , Please Forgive Me .

Friends , Without you guys , I'm all ALONE ,

Without you guys , I'm DEAD .

Without you guys , I'm going CRAZYY !! =P

Lord ,

Thanks for letting me know a lot of True Friends , Crazy Friends ,

and So on ! Without THEM , I'm NOTHING :)

Thank you LORD :)

AMEN ! :)

you don't have to take the fall.

Now, I don't want to lose you, but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you, but I don't want to be the one to cry.
And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.
Now, I could never change you, I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you,  but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.
It makes a sound like thunder, it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.

And there's no way home, when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?
And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough.

without you , i still can live happily . :)

4/5/2011

what a bad dayy ! damnn .

Everything spoiled my mood today .

Teacher dimerit me .

shit ==

and heard something from friends .

Girl , i never talk bad bout you . and i'm not really close

with you . why do you give a damn on me ?

before judging someone , take a mirror and look yourself .

and please , dont always care people business .

don play childish thinggy again . ==

thank you .

I'm FINE .

Friends and Buddies =)

Thankss for those who text me and call me that day .

thanks for caring me .

appreciate it veryy much .

I'm Happy still have you guys caring of me .

haha =D

FYI , i'm completely FINE nowww :)

no need to worry bout me again .

I'm just too stress on that day .

SORRY FOR LETTING YOU WORRIED .

2 / 5 / 2011

放 弃 你 。

当 我 最 需 要 你 的 时 候 ， 你 却 不 在 。

我 选 择 放 弃 .

放 弃 你 ， 放 弃 我 自 己 .

放 弃 爱 情 ，

也 放 弃 所 有 爱 的 权 利 .

连 自 己 都 知 道 这 不 公 平 . :')

如 果 你 爱 我 ， 你 会 来 找 我 ,

你 会 知 道 我 快 不 能 活 .

他 的 背 叛 , 让 我 长 大 . :')

我 爱 他 。

对他唯一遗憾是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最终的荒唐


如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开 爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖 越多的空白
该怎么去爱 ??

29 April =)

I thought.. Our love will never End..

I thought.. we still have the chance.. =')

two days ago , I'm Happy with all the word you call me.. Text me..

it seems like we go back to before..

My Mr Bean , i always believe all the word you say..

although it was a lie.. i still believe.. Because , ILY =)

But everytime when i'm tryin to give us a new chance..

I'll hear so many thing about you..

i don know it was real or not..

I just hope.. all the thing they tel me was'nt true =')

I really dont know What should i do anymore..

I'll Try My Best.. :')

25 / 4 / 11 , 10:16pm .

I'll Remember this time , that moment , those word , That call , That Message =')

" WAH LOON " ,

CYRIL CHIA CHUEN HOU , NUMBER 7 ! GOOD LUCKK !!! =)

THIS IS ME . =)

This is real, this is me
I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be, now
Gonna let the light, shine on me
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be
This is me
You're the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
You're the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I'm singing
Now I've found, who I am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I want to be

This is me =)

谢 谢 你 ， 告 诉 我 这 一 切 =')

男 孩 发 现 女 孩 有 了 新 的 恋 情 . 便 打 电 话 给 她 . 告 诉 她 他 想 说 的 一 切 .

“ 其 实 ， 我 对 你 的 心 从 来 都 没 改 变 过 ， 10 个 月 里 的 记 忆 ，

不 是 说 忘 记 就 忘 记 , 我 不 是 那 种 男 生 ,

我 不 喜 欢 看 到 你 和 其 他 男 生 太 近 .

如 果 我 不 在 乎 你 ， 我 不 会 打 给 你 ， 也 不 会 去 追 问 你 那 么 多 事 情 .

就 因 为 还 爱 你 ， 才 会 打 给 你 ， 问 问 那 位 男 孩 是 谁 . 再 问 你 是 不 是 真 的 爱 上 了 他 ?

你 真 的 认 为 我 已 经 把 我 们 10 个 月 里 面 的 记 忆 都 给 忘 了 吗 ?

不 会 ， 我 不 是 那 种 男 生 . 到 现 在 , 我 还 留 着 我 们 的 照 片 , 我 们 的 记 忆 .

我 想 你 .. :') ”

谢 谢 你 ， 告 诉 我 这 一 切 . =')

男 孩 , 其 实 " 我 " 也 很 想 你 .

25 april

Hello Bloggie !

i'm backkk !! haaha , i already din update my blog for 2 days =X

i'm queit busy in this few days .

i dont sleep enough ><

last sat when back to my mummy village .

edna and wen yee Following me too .

Hahah ! acttualy we plan go play water .

but rain.. so not jadi ><

and then follow my jie fu and my other cousin play

" bola sepak " in raining ! FIRST TIME !

its really fun but my leg damn pain =(

after that back to room and goin to bath .

and night , after dinner then have a drink .

" dester " weird oh the beer ==

just drink half my head start pain ady ==

well after that chit chat with cousin and intro them edna

and also wen yee . haha =P funny .

1:30am we sleep , 4:30 we wake .

cause mom wanna goin back kk early .

reach home 6:30 , they 2 and me continue sleep .

9am wake up prepare go out breakfast .

after that go church . after church movie .

haha =D

and night just back homee . =X

tiredddddd .

i have nothing to say about today .

HAHA =D

it's GOOD FRIDAY ! =)

Have a very wonderfull day todaaay =)

attend church mass with friends .

and of course i've learn something new about Him , Jesus =)

Father talk about the passion of Christ todayy .

We are the reason that He gave His life.
We are the reason that He suffered and died.
To a world that was lost He gave all He could give.
To show us the reason to live.

thank you , Jesus .

Amen .

hmmp , gotta pack my bag .

goin back village tomorrow .

Edna and Wen Yee Following too =D

so .. Good Night buddies !

Sweet Dreams ! =D

Sorry , I cant be perfect .

Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according
To plan?
Do you think I’m wasting
My time doing things I
Wanna do?
But it hurts when you
Disapprove all along


And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t pretend that
I’m alright
And you can’t change me


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect


I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be
My hero?
All the days
You spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don’t
Care anymore


And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I’m never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can’t stand another fight
And nothing’ alright


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect


Nothing’s gonna change
The things that you said
Nothing’s gonna make this
Right again
Please don’t turn your back
I can’t believe it’s hard
Just to talk to you
But you don’t understand


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect


‘Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect
Now it’s just too late
And we can’t go back
I’m sorry
I can’t be Perfect

Sorry , i cant be perfect =')

14 april

dunno how to describe today .

angry ? innocent ? Happy ?

==

me and my others 19 fren get scold from teacher today ==

just because we don have bring text book also need perjanjian .

as she wish , we do perjanjian for her . ==

and we all say sorry to her again .

acttualy we all are not willing to do that .

The Only word i can say ,

WE dont have do anything wrong .

only don have bring text book also need till like this .

As a teacher , you must solve the thing easier and make

the case gettin smaller .

not MAKE THE CASE GETTIN BIGGER . ==

12 april

CAN I CHANGE SCHOOL ? ==

TODAY , Bm teacher spoil my mood again ==

i don get the Question paper cause i'm absent on that day .

nobody told me about the paper .

the teacher give them the paper that day and also

ask them to past up on that day too .

how i know about the excersise paper ?

DAMN !!

you really make everybody feel stress ==

i wont do what you asked me to do .

I don mind bout you asking me copy those question .

But Please , Don talk with us like we're stupid .

please STOP scolding us with " those word " ==

satan ? funny .

People Don have the Question paper , and ask you for that .

You say its NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS .

Fine , so we just do the answer on a paper .

and give it to you .

at least we done the answer please . and you dont accept it ==

SO , why you say its none of your business if you care the way we do ??

and , we never talk bad bout you .

We speak chinese does'nt mean we're talkin bad bout you kay..

WE NEVER TALK BAD BOUT YOU TEACHER .

AND ,

As you wish , I'm READY to take Amaran and do perjanjian

as long as you're happy . ==

although i'm not willing to do that . ==

11 april what a lame dayyy

urgh , mood got a little bit low today .

give malay teacher denda ==

i really don know what she's teaching us .

hard to understand .

hard to communicate with the teacher .

i hate the word she scold us .

what satan la and many . ==

damn stress ohh Zzzz

and its boring at school today .

1m1s . forget to bring shirt .

so just sit besite rest and chit chat with fren . :)

urghh ! what a lame day .

9 April

Hello Bloggie ! =D

Hmm , i'm gonna start my yesterday diary :)

wheeee , in the morning i went to wen yee house .

after that reach her house SOT with her and edna . funny crazy us xD

and den wait for Kai eng fetch us to Jie house .

hahaa =D

and den we reach .

and jie bring us to Chicken Recipe have our lunch :))

Yummy =D the boss there so cute , funny and friendly :D

got MAMA feel =D

finish our lunch , we back to jis house , we watch " the passion of Christ " .

touch by the movie . Jesus gives us A new life .

Jesus washes our sins through the Cross .

I love You , Jesus :')

and den finish watch we change shirt and prepare go to church . 6pm ,

Sunset Mass Started , after mass , we Go LifeNight againn :)

and know more about Jesus .

we sing , Sharing :))

10pm , LifeNight End , see ya on next saturday againn . whee ;)

10 april

today just stay at home .

feeeel reallly really tireddd .

nothin special bout todayy .

kai eng :)

Edna :P

Wen Yee :D

Vivian Jie * :D

Chicken Recipe . look like one big Family right ?? =DD

8 april

8 april , lovee todayy :)

do you remember what day is today ? :)

Today at school , like usually . nothing special .

haha =X

just stay at school for the meeting of the drama .

after meeting , we go yam cha :)

and wen yee uncle fetch me back home .

reach home den take my medicine .

:)

later going out with my sis and her husband .

Bring wen yee out too .

goin for a movie :))

wheeeee :)

today is Friday , Tomorrow is saturday .

goin church life night again :*

alwaysss be strongg . :*

6 april

Hello bloggie .

like usually go to school today .
whole day at class havin fun with all teacher and friends .
nothing make me feel stress today . haha =D
Hmmm Hmm , when english class ,
English teacher told us that we are goin to act a drama .
whole class included . haha ~ some of friend be director la , usher la ,
make up , Set and so on . the drama is need to perform 1 .
still dunno whens the date yet .
we just have to prepare . wuahahah!
and , I'm The Actor for the Drama ~ hahha! cant believe =X
feel so excited for the skrip ! xD
i think itss really really FUN this ~ =D
WOOHOO ~ ! continue discuss with teacher again tomorrow =)


2:30 ,
its time for kokum again . i don have wear uniform =X
Luckily Teacher no come =P and den go auditorium for interact club .
also play games there . funnnn a lott ~ ! =D




urghh , hateeee .
Fever , Cough and Flu and keep on feel like freezin this few days .
cause of the RAIN ? ==
acttually i need to go hospital and get injection today .
but i'm not feeling well . so i din go hospital =X
Nvmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm ,be strong phoebe =)
I cannnnnnn :)*


Bye Bloggie , goin pack up my bag .


Nightssss ~

Famous last word .

Now I know that I can't make you stay
But where's your heart?

And I know there's nothing I could say
To change that part.

So many bright lights to cast a shadow, but can I speak?
Well, is it hard understanding I'm incomplete?
A life that's so demanding, I get so weak
A love that's so demanding, I can't speak.

I see you lying next to me.
With words I thought I'd never speak.
Awake and unafraid.
Asleep or dead.

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead!)
if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home .

iwontbelieveinyouanymore.

Your Word :')


Your Word , Hard to believe . once i believe , you make me dissapointed again .
Your Word , i have try to believe , but once i believe , you make me dissapointed again .
Your Word , I believe always . but what you give me ?
i always believe the word you say . always and always . i know you lie ,
but i still believe.. why ?
When i Need you most , you leave .
When i need you , you're not beside me .

Past is Past . If its over , just let it go .
please ..

Someone , you're right :) why should i wait for him ?
Someone , You're right , why should i wait for someone that not love me anymore ?
Someone , you're right , Why should I believe his word although i know his lie ?
Someone , Thanks for waking me up . :)


I dont love you , like i did before .
Sometimes i cry so hard from pleading , so sick and tired
of all the needless beating .

I've been givin out chances everytime and all you do is
let me down . you dont have to call me anymore .
i wont pick up the phone . this is the last straw , dont want to hurt anymore .
Someday , you can tel me you're sorry .
but wait till the day , i wont believe you like i did before .
You're not Sorry at all =)

I'm Sorry , cause I Dont love you like i did yesterday .




iwontrustyourwordanymore.never.

29 march

i like today and idk why . haha =x

Maybe cause today at class so free ?

all teacher mood today so Good .

if can everyday like this kan better ? xD

especially Bm class , the teacher was very funny .

but sometime when she's mad , really scary this =x

today when reach home , after bath . my mom just back home .

she teach me make " macaroni salad " hahaha ! so ma fan this .

i tot so easy to make it ==

well i'm just done =P

and i have to pack some for edna , wen yee and also herrold .

give them test my cook =P

that will be their breakfast for tomorrow .

heee =x

hmm , its time to take my dinner and medicine again =)

Tomorrow Injection . well BE STRONG BE STRONG PHOEBE !!

BELOVED FRIENDS ,

Thanks for you guys support . :'D

28 march . Sunny Day =)

nothin special today . i sleep late last night .

cause wanna done my homework . but do dao half

fall into sleep . =S wake up already early in the morning .

so i just prepare go to school.

when reach school i continue do it .

and i'm done before the teacher come .

haha =X

assembly gain . boreedd .

hmm , havin 1m1s at school today .

boreeed . macam tiada =x

after school went to my friend house .

half and hour later my aunt fetch me there =)

Reach home , eat porridge that made from my dad .

and take my medicine after my meal .

I gonna be hardworking to eat those medicine

to get a better result later on =)

wednesday , need go to hospital and have an injection .

although i'm feeling scare for it . But with all Friends support ,

i got to be strong . i wont make you guys dissapointed to me .

I can get through all of this .

I promise i'll get back my healthy body back .

I'll promise i'll win in this war .

Thankss a lot friends . =)

Yesterday , i have receive a lots of friends message bout my sick .

I'm Touched by you guys ! :'D thankks BUDDY !!

espiacially for those who calling me last night .

thanks to you guys againn !

don worry i'll hear you guys advice .

you guys really made me wanna cry this =(

when you guys text me i'm just finish back from church again tuh ~

GOOD TIMING !! ='D

hmm , i din go to anywhere today.. just stayin at home . rest watch tv online

dats all . punyalah boringgg ==

now they all busy decorating my house and busy prepare food

for to night My sis and My cousin

Birthday Party . :)

I'm might have a nap first .

feel tiredd . save energy for to night . :)

I'll be tough .

I'll be Strong .

i can SUCCESS through this BIG TEST .

I'll be fine.. Right....? :)

please... let me go...

Doctor told me : 80% of tumor will vanish itself if i get enough rest .

so , i need have 1 injection for a week and 4 different medicine everyday in this 2 months .

beside that , of course i need have enough rest too . doctor said if through this

injection and medicine if it will become smaller .

i no need to take operation . but after 2 month if its still the same .

i need to have an operation immediately .

haihh..

PRAY FOR ME .

i really hope i can get through all of this..

it reallllllly killlliiinnggg my mind everyday .

I CAN .....

4cm.. what the F with this thing ?!!!! can you just please go away..?

PLEASE....

25 March

Hmm well , feel so tired in this few days .

just super worry bout my health . haihh .

1 week 1 injection . 1 days 4 different pilss of

medicine . Crazy =X . i just gonna bear all of this in 2 months .

Tel me , i can go through all of this .

Friends , I can , Right ?

Its reallly a BIG TEST for me .

sighhh

Havin dinner with class to night .

:))

I no need everything , i just want my health .

Its over =') Sorry..

all was my fault . i'm the one who make you like this .

Sorry that i never understand you . i never care for your feeling . =')

I'm the one who start all of this . If not because of me . we wont be like this NOW . =(

right ? i've tried my best.. but i still cant get over you.. i surrender to you.. :')

* CCCH *

this 5 months , i miss you deeply . do you know that ? :')

you're right.. 5 month not long.. 5 month just a very short time..

i believe all the word you say.. i believe it all the time..

why ? i also don know whats goin with me today ?

am i diffferent with the Phoebe you've meet last time? am i change a lot ?

since the day you go.. the pieces of my heart are missin you :')

Sorry for everything i've done to you..

all our memories Happiness , lonelyness , tears , smile , Cry , laugh .

For me , " past is past ' , if you're dissapointed . SORRY :')

i've cried , for you.. I've laughted , for you.. i've change , for you..

now i'm alone.. just because of you.. now i'm alone without you..

if i die today , what will you do ? Come after ? or just pretend not affected ?
i love you , after you love me . i wish i'm a grass .. so , i can cut myself..

you're important , to me :') i don know if i'll be okay.. you traded everything just for me .

I never Realized that . I love you , but i hate you too . My only wish for now , to be with you .

Everything had changed . :') you remove my worried . Now , i throwed my dreams .

since i've done this , i'm lonely for a year . My Sunshine become my night .

My Happiness becomes a crap . Plenty lies , you're not here . CCCH , sorry..

really sorry.. sorry.. the person i most need now is you.. you called me just now.. you keep make me laugh..

but i din give you any respond.. cause i cant smile.. sorry.. if really one day.. i dissappear in this

world.. will you still ask me to wait you..? I'm serious.. Nobody know what will happen

on the next second :') right..?

through you call , through you call just now.. i know how much you care me..

but if one day.. the hardest thing you cant accept really happen..

do we still have the chance to wait..? :')

this is what i scare and worried for :')

why it happen on me ? ='(

It's so hard to lose the one you love..
To finally have to say goodbye.
I'm try to be strong but the pain keeps holdin' on.
Deep within my heart i know it's time to move on.
When the fairy tale that i once knew is gone.

When my last tear drop falls.
I'll still be holdin' on to all of our memories.
And all of what used to be
When the last tear drop falls
I will stand tall.
So now I'm alone and life keeps movin on
But my destination still unknown.
Will there be a time when I'll fall in love again?
Or am I just meant to walk these streets alone ?

* AMELY *

thanks for telling me all about him last night .

really thanks to you .

you're the person who care me most =)

and sorry cause makin you dissapointed on me .

I'm Failed . our stories End =')

he found his real love .

so i must wish him , Right ?

SweetHeart , miss you deeply suddenly this .

* SOMEONE *

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

Sorry cause makin you dissapointed on me once again .

i really don know what else i can do..

I'm tired with all of this..

why its so complicated ?

not i don wan to believe you .

just i see what i should not see . =')

SORRY THAT I LOVE YOU .

SORRY THAT I LOVE YOU .

SORRY THAT I LOVE YOU .

SORRY THAT I LOVE YOU .

SORRY THAT I LOVE YOU .

我再没有话要说出来.

我不想再期待继续下去.

我不了解你怎能心安.

也抓不住你的倔强.

可是我知道你为什么说谎.

你不必解释 =')

Friends , i wont open for my facebook in one period .

even my phone . =)

don ask why i do this , cause i'm just tryin to cool down myself .

don worry , of course i'll be back . as soon as possible ? :)