29 march

i like today and idk why . haha =x

Maybe cause today at class so free ?

all teacher mood today so Good .

if can everyday like this kan better ? xD

especially Bm class , the teacher was very funny .

but sometime when she's mad , really scary this =x

today when reach home , after bath . my mom just back home .

she teach me make " macaroni salad " hahaha ! so ma fan this .

i tot so easy to make it ==

well i'm just done =P

and i have to pack some for edna , wen yee and also herrold .

give them test my cook =P

that will be their breakfast for tomorrow .

heee =x

hmm , its time to take my dinner and medicine again =)

Tomorrow Injection . well BE STRONG BE STRONG PHOEBE !!

BELOVED FRIENDS ,

Thanks for you guys support . :'D

28 march . Sunny Day =)

nothin special today . i sleep late last night .

cause wanna done my homework . but do dao half

fall into sleep . =S wake up already early in the morning .

so i just prepare go to school.

when reach school i continue do it .

and i'm done before the teacher come .

haha =X

assembly gain . boreedd .

hmm , havin 1m1s at school today .

boreeed . macam tiada =x

after school went to my friend house .

half and hour later my aunt fetch me there =)

Reach home , eat porridge that made from my dad .

and take my medicine after my meal .

I gonna be hardworking to eat those medicine

to get a better result later on =)

wednesday , need go to hospital and have an injection .

although i'm feeling scare for it . But with all Friends support ,

i got to be strong . i wont make you guys dissapointed to me .

I can get through all of this .

I promise i'll get back my healthy body back .

I'll promise i'll win in this war .

Thankss a lot friends . =)

Yesterday , i have receive a lots of friends message bout my sick .

I'm Touched by you guys ! :'D thankks BUDDY !!

espiacially for those who calling me last night .

thanks to you guys againn !

don worry i'll hear you guys advice .

you guys really made me wanna cry this =(

when you guys text me i'm just finish back from church again tuh ~

GOOD TIMING !! ='D

hmm , i din go to anywhere today.. just stayin at home . rest watch tv online

dats all . punyalah boringgg ==

now they all busy decorating my house and busy prepare food

for to night My sis and My cousin

Birthday Party . :)

I'm might have a nap first .

feel tiredd . save energy for to night . :)

I'll be tough .

I'll be Strong .

i can SUCCESS through this BIG TEST .

I'll be fine.. Right....? :)

please... let me go...

Doctor told me : 80% of tumor will vanish itself if i get enough rest .

so , i need have 1 injection for a week and 4 different medicine everyday in this 2 months .

beside that , of course i need have enough rest too . doctor said if through this

injection and medicine if it will become smaller .

i no need to take operation . but after 2 month if its still the same .

i need to have an operation immediately .

haihh..

PRAY FOR ME .

i really hope i can get through all of this..

it reallllllly killlliiinnggg my mind everyday .

I CAN .....

4cm.. what the F with this thing ?!!!! can you just please go away..?

PLEASE....

25 March

Hmm well , feel so tired in this few days .

just super worry bout my health . haihh .

1 week 1 injection . 1 days 4 different pilss of

medicine . Crazy =X . i just gonna bear all of this in 2 months .

Tel me , i can go through all of this .

Friends , I can , Right ?

Its reallly a BIG TEST for me .

sighhh

Havin dinner with class to night .

:))

I no need everything , i just want my health .

Its over =') Sorry..

all was my fault . i'm the one who make you like this .

Sorry that i never understand you . i never care for your feeling . =')

I'm the one who start all of this . If not because of me . we wont be like this NOW . =(

right ? i've tried my best.. but i still cant get over you.. i surrender to you.. :')

* CCCH *

this 5 months , i miss you deeply . do you know that ? :')

you're right.. 5 month not long.. 5 month just a very short time..

i believe all the word you say.. i believe it all the time..

why ? i also don know whats goin with me today ?

am i diffferent with the Phoebe you've meet last time? am i change a lot ?

since the day you go.. the pieces of my heart are missin you :')

Sorry for everything i've done to you..

all our memories Happiness , lonelyness , tears , smile , Cry , laugh .

For me , " past is past ' , if you're dissapointed . SORRY :')

i've cried , for you.. I've laughted , for you.. i've change , for you..

now i'm alone.. just because of you.. now i'm alone without you..

if i die today , what will you do ? Come after ? or just pretend not affected ?
i love you , after you love me . i wish i'm a grass .. so , i can cut myself..

you're important , to me :') i don know if i'll be okay.. you traded everything just for me .

I never Realized that . I love you , but i hate you too . My only wish for now , to be with you .

Everything had changed . :') you remove my worried . Now , i throwed my dreams .

since i've done this , i'm lonely for a year . My Sunshine become my night .

My Happiness becomes a crap . Plenty lies , you're not here . CCCH , sorry..

really sorry.. sorry.. the person i most need now is you.. you called me just now.. you keep make me laugh..

but i din give you any respond.. cause i cant smile.. sorry.. if really one day.. i dissappear in this

world.. will you still ask me to wait you..? I'm serious.. Nobody know what will happen

on the next second :') right..?

through you call , through you call just now.. i know how much you care me..

but if one day.. the hardest thing you cant accept really happen..

do we still have the chance to wait..? :')

this is what i scare and worried for :')

why it happen on me ? ='(

It's so hard to lose the one you love..
To finally have to say goodbye.
I'm try to be strong but the pain keeps holdin' on.
Deep within my heart i know it's time to move on.
When the fairy tale that i once knew is gone.

When my last tear drop falls.
I'll still be holdin' on to all of our memories.
And all of what used to be
When the last tear drop falls
I will stand tall.
So now I'm alone and life keeps movin on
But my destination still unknown.
Will there be a time when I'll fall in love again?
Or am I just meant to walk these streets alone ?

* AMELY *

thanks for telling me all about him last night .

really thanks to you .

you're the person who care me most =)

and sorry cause makin you dissapointed on me .

I'm Failed . our stories End =')

he found his real love .

so i must wish him , Right ?

SweetHeart , miss you deeply suddenly this .

* SOMEONE *

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

Sorry cause makin you dissapointed on me once again .

i really don know what else i can do..

I'm tired with all of this..

why its so complicated ?

not i don wan to believe you .

just i see what i should not see . =')

SORRY THAT I LOVE YOU .

SORRY THAT I LOVE YOU .

SORRY THAT I LOVE YOU .

SORRY THAT I LOVE YOU .

SORRY THAT I LOVE YOU .

我再没有话要说出来.

我不想再期待继续下去.

我不了解你怎能心安.

也抓不住你的倔强.

可是我知道你为什么说谎.

你不必解释 =')

Friends , i wont open for my facebook in one period .

even my phone . =)

don ask why i do this , cause i'm just tryin to cool down myself .

don worry , of course i'll be back . as soon as possible ? :)

If You're not the one

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know life so far away
But I know that its just a trip
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I'Ve build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

18 - 20 MARCH =D

Hey hey hey Bloggie !

i'm just back from my church lifeboot camp this !

ouch i'm havin fun all the times ! and already get so many experience there !

of course i have learn more thing about HIM , JESUS =)

Hmm , at the first day , i played 3 games . but i forget whats the games ady . =S

most fun is Climbing the 14 feet high that =D i forgot the name again =X

after that we go back to the dorm bath . and goin to the next session =)

2nd day , hmmm our group cooking today .

hahaha =D we set for our lunch . havin fun so much !

our cook not bad also =PP

The Next Activities , flyingfox ! how FUN is that !

i'm feel so scare when the beginning , so scare to climb up the

very very high tangga == but after play and try , feel wan to play 1 more time this xD

CRAZy !

And.. Night , Its a HEALING NIGHT Yesterday =)

Really touch my heart . feel like jesus really beside me and healing me .

The Holy Spirit really strong !

some of people cry , scream even pengsan also got .

WOWww , Its really a very meaningfull night . =')

i love all the thing He said . He's like so understand our feeling .

Family Problem ? Relationship ? Friendship ? Study ?

that all the problem i'm havin right now .

after the healing session , we go back to the dorm and chit chat till 1.30++

just go to bed =D

Today , our Group activities is 4 wheel xD very fun this !

its such like jungle tracking lik dat , guys take the wheel ang girls take

chair etc . =D OMG its really fun !

its really challenging me ! xD

and after that we go back to the dorm and pack up . lunch and last have group

picture . after that we're moving to the church =)

and they are havin MASS at 5 . and havin concert on 7pm , i wanna go but i

cant make it =( its my sis Baby Boy 1 monthsary today .

open house , so my jie fu fetch me back home and

i quickly prepare before my cousin and sister friend them come !

haha ! till here , i'm goin to take my dinner .

and Crazy with Them laterrr .

I"M NOT GOING TO SCHOOL TOMORROW =P

BYE BYE ! =D

15 , 16 , 17 march . =)

Hey Bloggie !

I'm gonna start my blog from 15 march .

that day evening , wait for keningau friends reach kk .

they reach at 3pm something :)

we go cinema and buy for Big mommas movie ticket .

after that , we have a snacks at Big Apple while wait for the movie start .

after that we go to the movie .

and where we go next is Sushi Tei For our dinner =D

after dinner , we go fun square play .

after play , thy company us back to our hotel .

and they back home :)

11 ++ tiba2 feel stomach not feeling well .

and edna and wen yee wanna grab some food .

so , CC come and bring us food . thankss you ! :)

The next day , 16 march :)

we went to 1borneo . meet them .

and go to one of their friend Condominium there watch Horror movie =S

we just watch a part of it . cause its really disgusting =X

we go down to the mall again .

and we play games . Sing k , Play Pool , the most funny 1 is " bung bung che " =P

after tat , we have a meal at "HOME " a restaurant . nice .

before eat , arnold bring us Pray :)

after that , they goin to their movie .

me and wen yee gonna back home early .

so cant join them =S

we back home . i wait my car at wen yee house .

and my je fu fetch me . wen yee follow me home too =D

I sleep early =S cause really tired .

wen yee still steady , continue for her korean drama =D

Today , 17 march .

i wake up at 1oam++ =S

after prepared , went to Cp and watched RANGO with them .

today they last day at kk this time .

wen yee , me , jovis and also arnold

had our lunch at warisan " kam tong " :)

after that just go for the movie .

after the movie , they're goin back to keningau . :)

Anyway , i really have a blast with them in this 3 days :)

more photos will be upload at my Facebook .

I'm uploading it just now , but Fb really so lagggg .

maybe will late upload it =S

Say goodbye to that part of yesterday

Hidden where no one else can see A whirlpool in my heart of my anxiety So many roads to follow Not really sure which one I should take Anyway, I'm being me For so long, I let others tell me the way Say goodbye to that part of yesterday  I believe myself 'Cause I know it's what I need Everything begins when I believe within myself Oh, I believe in me The moment shining light I see To the day we think I know that is where I'm gonna go I believe  In front of me with my eyes With eternal loving skies I wanna know this feeling oh beauty my love  I believe myself 'Cause I know it's what I need Everything begins when I believe within myself Oh, I believe in me The moment shining like a sea To the day we think I know that is where I'm gonna go I believe

13 March

today morning , with sis have breakfast at damai .

when having , i saw one family.. all could'nt talk .

5 people , dad , mom , 1 maybe 20++ years old son , one 7 something ?

and 1 was still a baby . the mummy hugging the baby .

What i realise is , although they cant talk .

although they just can use hand communicate

with people , they're still happy . i dunno how to describe my feeling

when watching them in the other side . :')

People , Cherish what you have now . =)

Hmm after that with sis go buy her things at karamunsing..

and then back home . Its sunday today , so i tidy up my room =D

My sis was sick , and i 'm the one who will be babysitter =P

i stay at home and take care for the Baby and his mummy =DD

He's so lucky ohhh , First time help a

baby change pampers =S

Hahha =D

thats all for today .

updatedddd it by tomorroww :)

Bye Bye ! ;)

丁噹-幸運草 . love this song very much :)

豔陽天 花園 汗濕他的臉
純真是我十七歲掛念那男孩

亮晃晃 時間 拉著青春跑
跑過了午睡醒後操場的喧鬧

他找到 四葉幸運草
他給我 萬分之一的緣份
多奇妙 愛心形的微笑
在我掌心裡 輕輕飄

幸運草的夏天有他陪著我迷路
喜歡當時小小幸福就是愛情的全部
那天一陣烈日 一陣大雨 一整個下午
他的汗水滲進土裡為我綻放 心的禮物
dalada，dalada，dalada，dalada，dalada
wo，wo……
他找到 四葉幸運草
他給我 萬分之一的緣份
多奇妙 愛心形的微笑
在我掌心裡 輕輕飄

幸運草的夏天有他陪著我迷路
喜歡當時小小幸福就是愛情的全部
那天一陣烈日 一陣大雨 一整個下午
他的汗水滲進土裡為我綻放 心的禮物

一轉眼成長了 散了
沒結局的傳說 他記不記得

幸運草裡藏著的詩早已經模糊
愛情卻在每次淚乾之後越來越清楚
直到書籤破了 花園拆了 我也不再哭
才懂得了有個男孩曾經為我 全心付出

11 march

din write blog in this few days cause of exam .

science is our last paper today !

Section B i have blank some of question =\

i think my result SURE FAIL this time =(

HMm , after school with wen yee go suria watch

" I AM NUMBER FOUR " itsss really AWESOME !!

i tot this movie was very boringg .

From the beggining of the movie ,

its really make you feel Nervous for the next part !

and den back home lurhh .

REACH HOME , get to know bout the news that japan tsunami !

really shocked to hear that ! ><

Friends , Who's The First 1 appear in your mind after you

know bout the news ? :)

7 march

tomorrrooow exammmmmmmmmmmmmmmm .

not goin say more here .

STUDY STUDY STUDY !!!!! =(

5 marchhhhhhh !! =D

Hello Hello Bloggie !! =P

HAHA =D i just wanna talk bout yesterday , AN AWESOME DAY i ever had !! =D

here i go , Hmm , early in the morning i wake up at 6am =S prepare goin damai

" Tong Hing Supermarket " check stock with School Friendss =P reach there , meet up with wen yee , edna , fandi and also antonio.

the shop open at 7.30 . we go in and the manager arrange work for we all .

really so ma fan ! == but its really fun xD around 11.30 something , we're DONE ! and we check out :)) after that we had our lunch at " Fu Yuan " . after eat kawan 1 fren go

yoyo buy drinks and wait car fetch us to church . reach church 2 something ,

we start decorate our stall . " PASTRIES CORNER " =PP

6pm , our bazaar start ! claudia babe reach and help us , thankss babee =P

our pastries almost sold out 7.45 something , argh ! we wan to go in to the hall

and watch for the YOUTH concert ! =( but we must CLEAR our pastries first ! a uncle

come and buy all of it !! hahaha !! we're the First stall which most early " CLOSE " xD

we tidy up and go in to the concert . Ouchhh , What a Touching Drama ? itss really really really touch my heart ! =') we sing all the worship song louder and higher !! and the concert end at 9.30 . after that back homee lurhh :P

goin to the YOUTH concert =D

Tickettttt !

me , edna , fandi

wen yee , edna

4 march

Hey Bloggie ! i din write blog for a few days ady =\ paisehh =S

nothin special today . early back from school direct back home .

HAHA =D today i din go anywhere , just stay at home ! =D

online ? do homework ? boringgg =\

Hmm , tomorrow need to wake up early in the morning cause i'm goin to damai

" tong hing " there check stock with school friends . after dat will go church bazaar , sunset mass and also LifeTeen .

TOMORROW will be a VERY VERY BUSY DAY =DD

HAPPYYY =PP

till here , continue it by tomorrow . =DD

Bye Bye :D