25 March

Hmm well , feel so tired in this few days .

just super worry bout my health . haihh .

1 week 1 injection . 1 days 4 different pilss of

medicine . Crazy =X . i just gonna bear all of this in 2 months .

Tel me , i can go through all of this .

Friends , I can , Right ?

Its reallly a BIG TEST for me .

sighhh

Havin dinner with class to night .

:))

I no need everything , i just want my health .

Its over =') Sorry..

all was my fault . i'm the one who make you like this .

Sorry that i never understand you . i never care for your feeling . =')

I'm the one who start all of this . If not because of me . we wont be like this NOW . =(

right ? i've tried my best.. but i still cant get over you.. i surrender to you.. :')

* CCCH *

this 5 months , i miss you deeply . do you know that ? :')

you're right.. 5 month not long.. 5 month just a very short time..

i believe all the word you say.. i believe it all the time..

why ? i also don know whats goin with me today ?

am i diffferent with the Phoebe you've meet last time? am i change a lot ?

since the day you go.. the pieces of my heart are missin you :')

Sorry for everything i've done to you..

all our memories Happiness , lonelyness , tears , smile , Cry , laugh .

For me , " past is past ' , if you're dissapointed . SORRY :')

i've cried , for you.. I've laughted , for you.. i've change , for you..

now i'm alone.. just because of you.. now i'm alone without you..

if i die today , what will you do ? Come after ? or just pretend not affected ?
i love you , after you love me . i wish i'm a grass .. so , i can cut myself..

you're important , to me :') i don know if i'll be okay.. you traded everything just for me .

I never Realized that . I love you , but i hate you too . My only wish for now , to be with you .

Everything had changed . :') you remove my worried . Now , i throwed my dreams .

since i've done this , i'm lonely for a year . My Sunshine become my night .

My Happiness becomes a crap . Plenty lies , you're not here . CCCH , sorry..

really sorry.. sorry.. the person i most need now is you.. you called me just now.. you keep make me laugh..

but i din give you any respond.. cause i cant smile.. sorry.. if really one day.. i dissappear in this

world.. will you still ask me to wait you..? I'm serious.. Nobody know what will happen

on the next second :') right..?

through you call , through you call just now.. i know how much you care me..

but if one day.. the hardest thing you cant accept really happen..

do we still have the chance to wait..? :')

this is what i scare and worried for :')

why it happen on me ? ='(

It's so hard to lose the one you love..
To finally have to say goodbye.
I'm try to be strong but the pain keeps holdin' on.
Deep within my heart i know it's time to move on.
When the fairy tale that i once knew is gone.

When my last tear drop falls.
I'll still be holdin' on to all of our memories.
And all of what used to be
When the last tear drop falls
I will stand tall.
So now I'm alone and life keeps movin on
But my destination still unknown.
Will there be a time when I'll fall in love again?
Or am I just meant to walk these streets alone ?

* AMELY *

thanks for telling me all about him last night .

really thanks to you .

you're the person who care me most =)

and sorry cause makin you dissapointed on me .

I'm Failed . our stories End =')

he found his real love .

so i must wish him , Right ?

SweetHeart , miss you deeply suddenly this .

* SOMEONE *

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

You're Right , i never understand you :')

Sorry cause makin you dissapointed on me once again .

i really don know what else i can do..

I'm tired with all of this..

why its so complicated ?

not i don wan to believe you .

just i see what i should not see . =')

SORRY THAT I LOVE YOU .

SORRY THAT I LOVE YOU .

SORRY THAT I LOVE YOU .

SORRY THAT I LOVE YOU .

SORRY THAT I LOVE YOU .

我再没有话要说出来.

我不想再期待继续下去.

我不了解你怎能心安.

也抓不住你的倔强.

可是我知道你为什么说谎.

你不必解释 =')

Friends , i wont open for my facebook in one period .

even my phone . =)

don ask why i do this , cause i'm just tryin to cool down myself .

don worry , of course i'll be back . as soon as possible ? :)

If You're not the one

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all?

I never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know life so far away
But I know that its just a trip
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I'm praying you're the one I'Ve build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't wanna run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

18 - 20 MARCH =D

Hey hey hey Bloggie !

i'm just back from my church lifeboot camp this !

ouch i'm havin fun all the times ! and already get so many experience there !

of course i have learn more thing about HIM , JESUS =)

Hmm , at the first day , i played 3 games . but i forget whats the games ady . =S

most fun is Climbing the 14 feet high that =D i forgot the name again =X

after that we go back to the dorm bath . and goin to the next session =)

2nd day , hmmm our group cooking today .

hahaha =D we set for our lunch . havin fun so much !

our cook not bad also =PP

The Next Activities , flyingfox ! how FUN is that !

i'm feel so scare when the beginning , so scare to climb up the

very very high tangga == but after play and try , feel wan to play 1 more time this xD

CRAZy !

And.. Night , Its a HEALING NIGHT Yesterday =)

Really touch my heart . feel like jesus really beside me and healing me .

The Holy Spirit really strong !

some of people cry , scream even pengsan also got .

WOWww , Its really a very meaningfull night . =')

i love all the thing He said . He's like so understand our feeling .

Family Problem ? Relationship ? Friendship ? Study ?

that all the problem i'm havin right now .

after the healing session , we go back to the dorm and chit chat till 1.30++

just go to bed =D

Today , our Group activities is 4 wheel xD very fun this !

its such like jungle tracking lik dat , guys take the wheel ang girls take

chair etc . =D OMG its really fun !

its really challenging me ! xD

and after that we go back to the dorm and pack up . lunch and last have group

picture . after that we're moving to the church =)

and they are havin MASS at 5 . and havin concert on 7pm , i wanna go but i

cant make it =( its my sis Baby Boy 1 monthsary today .

open house , so my jie fu fetch me back home and

i quickly prepare before my cousin and sister friend them come !

haha ! till here , i'm goin to take my dinner .

and Crazy with Them laterrr .

I"M NOT GOING TO SCHOOL TOMORROW =P

BYE BYE ! =D

15 , 16 , 17 march . =)

Hey Bloggie !

I'm gonna start my blog from 15 march .

that day evening , wait for keningau friends reach kk .

they reach at 3pm something :)

we go cinema and buy for Big mommas movie ticket .

after that , we have a snacks at Big Apple while wait for the movie start .

after that we go to the movie .

and where we go next is Sushi Tei For our dinner =D

after dinner , we go fun square play .

after play , thy company us back to our hotel .

and they back home :)

11 ++ tiba2 feel stomach not feeling well .

and edna and wen yee wanna grab some food .

so , CC come and bring us food . thankss you ! :)

The next day , 16 march :)

we went to 1borneo . meet them .

and go to one of their friend Condominium there watch Horror movie =S

we just watch a part of it . cause its really disgusting =X

we go down to the mall again .

and we play games . Sing k , Play Pool , the most funny 1 is " bung bung che " =P

after tat , we have a meal at "HOME " a restaurant . nice .

before eat , arnold bring us Pray :)

after that , they goin to their movie .

me and wen yee gonna back home early .

so cant join them =S

we back home . i wait my car at wen yee house .

and my je fu fetch me . wen yee follow me home too =D

I sleep early =S cause really tired .

wen yee still steady , continue for her korean drama =D

Today , 17 march .

i wake up at 1oam++ =S

after prepared , went to Cp and watched RANGO with them .

today they last day at kk this time .

wen yee , me , jovis and also arnold

had our lunch at warisan " kam tong " :)

after that just go for the movie .

after the movie , they're goin back to keningau . :)

Anyway , i really have a blast with them in this 3 days :)

more photos will be upload at my Facebook .

I'm uploading it just now , but Fb really so lagggg .

maybe will late upload it =S